Getting back to myself: my weight loss challenge

All my life I have been fluctuating up and down the scale, but I was never “big”. I wouldn't say I have maintained a stable number on the weight scale especially in these later years  though.

I was a very active girl during my teens and early 20’s, up until I got married 6 years ago. Incidentally I started to put on weight after the wedding. First I thought it was the “Happy life and no shame” type of life that contributed if not caused this gradual increase on weight. Then I was diagnose with a myoma in 2011 and doctors said that it seemed to be one of the reasons why I kept putting on weight and had a hard time trying to shed those pounds / kilos off me. Got a surgery to remove the myoma and during the first 6 month after the procedure I notice I was losing weight faster than before… but then… it just stopped. I’m a 5’3 and by that time I was 163 pounds (62g) not my ideal weight but not bad either.

That was the time our journey through fertility lane began and with it the medications and hormones which made me put on weight again getting me to almost 150 pounds (68kg). Needless to say that being full of hormones and overweight made me feel not particularly pretty nor gracious, but we had a goal ahead of us and we meant to reach it. By November 2013 I got pregnant and got to 156 pounds (71kg) by the beginning of the third month and that’s when we lost the baby.

The month after we lost the baby I began this blog as part therapy and part trying to record how our lives were and how they develop over time because our lives and our world move too fast and I wanted to have something to look back at some years from now and not just remember everything as a blur.

It’s going to be a month now since I began writing and some things need to change.

I went to Madrid last weekend and went shopping and trying clothes in the size I used to buy I noticed they were tighter and not very flattering on me anymore. Back home I took courage and stepped on the scale and saw a number I wasn't ready for. Not at all.

160 pounds (73kg)

And I was… terrified.

It was the time to stop saying “Someday I'm going to do it, I will get back to my ideal weight, but not just now… too tired… too lazy… too pitiful”.

I pictured myself in five years only growing bigger, only making the distance between my former self and a couch potato shorter by the hour. I realise that if we were to continue our journey through fertility lane I couldn’t be this big, it wasn't healthy for me and it wouldn't help make things easier to conceive or carry on a full term pregnancy in a healthy way.

I kind of I woke up. I took a deep breath and realise that if I did not start then, if I did not make at least one change to begin with, my life might never be what it should or what I wanted it to be.

I began this challenge today. In order to keep myself in check I will do, if not everything, at least most of the following things:

I will get back to eating healthy.
I will get back to my food journal. My Fitness Pal is fantastic for helping keep track of what you eat . You can add me to see my progress if you like.
I will keep walking every day and Bilbo (my dog) will be even happier!
I will try to move as much as possible.
I will get back to working out 4 - 5 days a week (Yoga, cardio, Tracy Anderson method, etc).
I will get back to dress properly and not live in my yoga pants or sweat pants anymore.

This is not a New Year’s Resolution. It is a “Get back to my life” resolution. I miss me. I miss feeling myself.

If you are starting a weight loss plan or already started it, please tell me and let’s get it done together.